Confused Me

I had always thought that I would never ever join any Masters program. I was very happy with my education and didn't want to continue studying at all. But still, somewhere on my mind, I had a feeling that i would definitely join MBA. I felt like that because I had a track record of doing everything that I had thought I would never do. For instance, I had promised myself that I would not study anything mediocre and common like Bachelors in Business Administration or Bachelors in Business Studies, but instead i would study fashion designing or mass communication. I really was interested in the arty things as well. Let me tell you that I used to pick up my paint brush and paint tubes and look into the world book (The hard copy...ahhhh those were the times when Google was not there and we had to search everything by leafing through the pages) and then copy paintings done by verryy acclaimed painters.

At one time I was soo influenced by the series Ally Mcbeal that I almost joined a law firm. I had convinced myself that after becoming a lawyer my life would be as adventurous as the life of Ally. But then sadly, there were many forces (within my family) who thought that being a lawyer was not good as there was not much opportunity in that profession. So my dream of becoming a lawyer and having a fun life was completely shattered. Well, finally I ended up doing BBA. Now that is a sad, sad story.

Well coming back to my reluctance to anything related to studying, I was so fed up with all of it that I had committed myself to not studying any more after I had completed my BBA. But then, there is this girl in my office, let us call her Neeta, who brainwashed me (But like I said earlier, I always had this hunch that I would end up doing it, so can't blame her completely) and now here I am....doing my MBA and completely hating it!!!

At first, I had thought the course that I am doing would be much simpler than the normal MBA. You see, I am doing an evening MBA. And before actually joining it, I had thought this course was for working professionals so there would be teachers who would be a little lenient towards us. But then i found out that they had just changed the name of the course and the timing of it and everything else was the same as the normal MBA. The course was the same, the exams were the same (I think ours was more hectic), and the evaluation process was also the same.

The worst part of it is that we have to have 80% attendance in each and every class or else we get an NQ (Not Qualified). If we get NQ in any subject, then we have to repeat the whole thing again...and that too with juniors.

But then there are good aspects too. For instance you get to meet many new people. You get to hang out at night and you can always have an excuse of having a class till 10 pm (even if there is no class at all). And for those people who take a few years gap, you get to be a student again and you get to live a life of a carefree student without any worries about the job that you left behind just half and a hour earlier from your office. So, it's not that bad. The getting education part is always there, but then getting to know new people is the best part of it.

So, i guess it's a bittersweet feeling. The studying is the bitter part for sure!!!